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Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
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12:20 pm - Oh well...
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...so much for posting more often! ;)
Things are going pretty well for me, all in all. I'm still dating a wonderful guy, I have a new furnace (so no worries about heat this winter), I'm feeling well from March's surgery and have really come to grips with much of the "stuff" that's gone on over the past year or so (that'll be a work in progress, I think).
Recent happenings, let's see. Stace & I spent a weekend in NYC, went to a Saturday matinee of "Young Frankenstein" - we had a fantabulous time, loved it! The whole weekend was a whole lot of great, we did a lot of stuff, including a street festival, goth/industrial club (those NYC peeps don't know how to dance!), Stardust diner (ton o'fun), people watching in the Village on a sunny Sunday afternoon (indescribable!)...simply lovely. This weekend I hosted a very small BBQ at my place, at the Stace's insistence. I guess I was reluctant for a couple of reasons...one, I wasn't nearly as far along with the house repairs/painting/gardening as I had wanted to be. Two, it was always Dad who had the parties there, or at least he was always there when I had the summer parties all those years ago. I felt a bit off, truth be told, not having the Old Man around...Stace helped me a lot with that, though he doesn't know it...he prolly does now! ;) Sunday we went to the NY RenFest, met up with a couple of his gaming friends and their adorable little boy who is all of 1 1/2 years old...blond-haired,blue eyes, the big baby cheeks that just scream to be pinched (lightly!!).
We had our pic taken at least eight times that we know of. I think the link will copy here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/steve_earl/2861976254/
*shrugs* if not, I'll post it some other way. I think we look damned fine! :)
Enough for now, gotta get some work done.
current mood:  optimistic
current music: WDHA
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| Sunday, July 27th, 2008
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8:40 pm - Back Again :)
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At the Nick & Patty's BBQ/Asylum Reunion yesterday, Trish reminded me that I really need to keep this up. I stopped & thought...gee, yeah, it's been months since I've posted.
So far, all good stuff is going on - yay! I think I'm due for a change, given the hell that was 2007 into 2008.
- I'm back working both jobs, both at Bayer and at the hospital. I started only this week at the hospital again, so I'm still juggling my schedule to make that fit. I've not been working there since December.
- I'm dating this wonderful guy who matches me on a lot of levels...pagan, poly, sci-fi (even to the same books we're reading at the same time), sense of humor, renfest...so many things, I'm still amazed at our high degree of compatibility. He's a software engineer who is, unfortunately, away for 8 weeks at a time, then home for four, then away for 8, etc. He just surprised me with tickets for Young Frankenstein!! I'm still blown away. He rocks! :)
- I have my kitties all here now. Two indoor (Mouse & Boo) and Spitz (formerly dad's kitty). It makes life interesting when Spitz decides he wants to be inside...the three of them are *so* funny.
- The house I owned with Kirk is sold, we closed in May. We saw very little profit on it, because of the lousy housing market, but at least it's sold and we can both move on with our lives.
- I have a therapist with whom I've worked very hard to get my head together again. I'm blessed that she doesn't try to fix the stuff I think is normal, but most of society would want it "fixed."
- Best of all is that I have incredibly amazing family & friends who have all helped to keep me together. I am truly blessed.
We'll see how well I can keep this journal up to date. My priority is emailing Stacey (that boyfriend I mentioned above), 'cause he's on a radar rig in the middle of the Pacific. We email daily, so must make sure that I do that before anything else. :) I'll try to do snippets of anything going on, to keep ya'll informed of what I'm up to.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: "Motivation" by Dope
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| Tuesday, May 6th, 2008
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8:01 pm - Back to Work
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OMG, I can't believe I was so excited about going back...I musta been outta my mind...yeah, that's it, that's my story and I'm sticking to it...temporary insanity brought on by severe cabin fever.
Ugh. I was stupid on Monday and put in a 12.5 hr day. Not too smart, was it? But dang, I had 2600 new emails in my inbox! I managed to winnow it down to a little over 500. So now it'll be a fight between the new emails coming in from all directions and trying to get through the old ones. Plus new projects, plus dealing with the temp who is also sitting at my desk. Nice enough, but she needs to logged on to my computer as well, so we keep switching back & forth. I don't like sharing my toys or my space. Get out. Now. Before I hurt you.
Today was much better, after I checked in with the company nurse and she gave me hell for staying so long yesterday. I shoulda left at 4:30 today, but managed 5pm. Pretty good, I think. Heh, I mostly left 'cause the servers I needed had crashed...the Help Desk said, "we're working on the issue, no estimated uptime." Great. Ta, I'm outta there.
I'm praying that the water test comes back OK for bacteria the Kenvil house I still own with my ex. The first test came back fine *except* for slightly elevated bacterial levels. Damn. So I had someone come last Wed to shock the well (read that as pour bleach down the wellhead). Then you let it all sit for 24 hours, run all the faucets until you smell chlorine, then let it all sit for two more hours so that the chlorine has a chance to kill all the little buggies in the pipes, tank and hot water heater. Then you have to run the water until you no longer smell chlorine...it took four days of running the outside hose. I met the water testing dude at the house Monday morning, handed him $95 more bucks for the privilege of testing the water again. We should have the results Thursday. We're scheduled to close on the Kenvil house at 2:15 Monday afternoon. Please please please let the water pass!!! I gotta have closure on this whole house thing. It's draining me physically, emotionally and financially.
On a totally different note, I saw Ironman last Friday afternoon with my brother. It was friggin' fabulous! I loved Robert Downey Jr, I thought he was perfect. The effects were great, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I wanna see it again!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  blah
current music: "Liberate" by Disturbed
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| Friday, May 2nd, 2008
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8:32 am - I Love This Piece...
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This is what going out dancing to QXT's means for me. I wish I could have expressed it as well.
We have come to be danced
Not the pretty dance
Not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
But the claw our way back into the belly
Of the sacred, sensual animal dance
The unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
The holding the precious moment in the palms
Of our hands and feet dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
But the wring the sadness from our skin dance
The blow the chip off our shoulder dance.
The slap the apology from our posture dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the monkey see, monkey do dance
One two dance like you
One two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
Tearing scabs and scars open dance
The rub the rhythm raw against our soul dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the nice, invisible, self-conscious shuffle
But the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
Shaman shakin' ancient bones dance
The strip us from our casings, return our wings
Sharpen our claws and tongues dance
The shed dead cells and slip into
The luminous skin of love dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
But the meeting of the trinity, the body breath and beat dance
The shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
The mother may I?
Yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
The olly olly oxen free free free dance
The everyone can come to our heaven dance.
We have come to be danced
Where the kingdom's collide
In the cathedral of flesh
To burn back into the light
To unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
To root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced
We have come.
by Jewel Mathieson
current mood: Focussed
current music: Purring kitties
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| Thursday, May 1st, 2008
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12:45 pm - Gift
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I'm outside, raking and doing misc yardwork, to celebrate Beltane. I look down on the walkway, and there is a big piece of robin's eggshell, about 2/3 of one. The promise that was given on Ostara, of new life, has been fulfilled by the hatching of this egg. What a wondrous Beltane gift.
current mood: awestruck
current music: Mom Nature waking up
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11:28 am - Happy Beltane!
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I love this time of year, savoring the feel of life returning to the earth. The scents (achoo!), the textures, the colors, sounds.
Thank you, 1cmf and one crazy mother for their Mayday party last Saturday. I had a great time, it was lovely to see everyone!
current mood:  happy
current music: "For You" by Staind
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| Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
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12:10 pm - Happy Birthday!
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Oh hey, happy-happy birthday 1cmf!! I'll be sure to give you an extra big hug on Saturday! I hope you have a good day today!
current mood: excited
current music: "Rock me Amadeus" by Megaherz
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| Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
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7:36 pm - Home at Last!
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I've definitely decided that Florida, while OK to visit, is NOT the place for me. Too flat, too monochrome (read that as nothing but friggin' palm trees), too boring. It's a great place to recuperate, 'cause there's nothing to do, except sit by the pool or just putz around...or drink. There's lots of that going on down there. The job market down there is truly horrible, many people are out of work. So they drown their sorrows, trying to forget about the mortgage, car payments, credit cards. It was rather depressing to be there, truth be told.
Nancy's hubby brought me home just as dusk was settling in. I was totally freaking out at the *colors* of the trees and flowers! You'd think I'd never seen spring before. And the scent of the blooming flowers, like ambrosia. I got home around 8 or so last night. The peepers were singing their little froggy hearts out! I just sat outside and listened, inhaling Spring. That is, until Spitz found me. OMG, the poor kitty truly acted like I had abandoned him - he yowled when he saw me, and ran right over. He wouldn't be parted from me for neither love nor money...I brought him into the house; I just didn't have the heart to leave him outside when he so desperately craved attention. I warmed up something to eat, sat on the couch with Spitz madly purring on my lap. Then it hit me, hard, how very much I had missed my home. My lifestyle. My stuff. Driving my beautiful Seraphina. Tears of joy spilled down my face, tears of thankfulness, of love, of true contentedness that it was all still here, waiting for me.
And then today, my beautiful Seraphina wouldn't start. Dead battery. Apparently, she didn't like sitting in the driveway for three weeks. I'd thought about asking my neighbors to please start her up every week, but promptly forgot. Providentially, my buddy Joe was playing hooky from work today, and was online...he lives nearby and came over & jump-started the battery. That was all she needed! I told Joe to thank his wife for letting me borrow him. She says that she gets that all the time, 'cause he's pretty handy to have around. Good thing for me! LOL
Hmmm, what else? Oh, I had asked my doctor about getting one of those permanent handicapped plaques you hang from the rear-view mirror. I don't need it all the time, but when the weather changes, or I zig when I should have zagged, I really really need it. He agreed, and it came while I was away. That's a huge relief, especially now that I have metal in two places; double the fun when the weather changes! Yay, won't that just be ducky? *pfeh*
Well, it's time to get some wine and go outside to listen to the peeper chorus. I can't imagine a more beautiful serenade on a lovely spring evening.
current mood:  grounded
current music: "Zeichen der Venus" by Eisbrecher
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| Friday, April 18th, 2008
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9:38 am - Happy Stuff
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Sometimes it's the things you're not looking for that really make your heart sing.
Before my surgery, I has mostly lost the use my left hand and arm. This morning, without even realizing it, I took a 1/2 gallon of milk out of the fridge...with my left hand! I suddenly stopped and looked at what I was *holding*...tears of gratefulness welled...I have no words to describe the joy in my soul.
Unexpectedly, too, I heard from my partner...I'm not worried about him anymore. :)
On a different note: I gotta find me some other userpics when I post here...I'm getting tired of the same old thing...any suggestions where I can find some good icons?
current mood: jubilant
current music: the pool filter
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| Sunday, April 13th, 2008
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10:07 am - It's Not *All* Bad Here
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OK, so I found something that I *really* like to do here in Florida. The neighbor has a boat, and took us out on it yesterday. It was fabulous day, the sun was playing tag with the clouds, the water was fairly smooth...yes, I wore my neck brace! We first went to a water-side restaurant, had sesame tuna for lunch...*yum*...and a melon colada *more yum*. There's a really interesting place to hang out if you have a boat. The sandbars that are exposed at low tide! The cypress trees encourage sand to gather, so even out in the bay area, amongst the little cypress tree islands, the water is, at most, only 2' deep. So it's a place where boats will come, anchor, and parties ensue! It's a family event, kids & dogs & even floating food vendors come and sell stuff. There were lotsa younger people, 20-somethings, out there, too. No restrictions on alcohol, or time. You could be out there at night, too. I can only imagine how incredibly beautiful it must be under the full moon, at low tide.
The water only came up to your knees where we anchored, although I didn't get out & wade, 'cause I was concerned that the current might make me lose my footing. (Yeah, I'm a little paranoid about anything that might ultimately interfere with my neck's healing.) We had such a great time - thank you, neighbor John! :) We got home around 4pm. I'm sporting a lovely deep sunburn, despite the tan I'd been working on for two weeks...*sigh*...it'll fade in a day or two, leaving me a nice dark tan. Ya'll are gonna hate me when you see me at onecrazymother & 1cmf's BBQ. *laughing happily*
The weather is changing today, from sunny and mid 80s to much cooler, like only in the 70s and cloudy. Oh, poor me! ;)
current mood:  good
current music: Mix of Music from QXT's
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| Friday, April 11th, 2008
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10:36 am - Still on Track!
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The house Kirk & I are selling is still on track for a May 13 closing! Whoohooo! The termite dude was there yesterday, no signs of the little critters, thankfully. Radon test is OK. Still haven't heard back about the results of the water test, even though they took the sample nearly *two* months ago...idiots. I told Kirk that the next time he spoke with the lawyer, he should mention it.
The only thing that might be a problem is that we can't find the oil tank. It might already be gone, but the guy that came to see if it's there couldn't find it, despite his fancy equipment. No sign of tank vent or even an opening to fill the tank. So we have to dig up the yard & follow the oil lines, if there are any. When I was still home, I was there when the guy hand dug a hole where the linesshould have been. He went down 33"...nothing. And when he put his sensors down the hole, nothing happened. We both think that the tank was removed, but there's no record of its being abated registered with the township. *sigh* So we have to have them dig up the yard. I hope that I'll be home before it happens, 'cause the digging will all happen in the flower beds. I want to rescue my coral bells, iris, hens and chicks...timing is everything!
Ten more days until I go home. You'd think I'd be happy to be here where it's warm and sunny and nothing to do. Sometimes I am. I'm bored. When I'm bored, I find stuff to do. Most likely it will be stuff that I probably shouldn't be doing. That's not good. So I force myself to sit and do more nothing.
Patience, Grasshopper, patience.
I don't do patience well, either. *sigh again*
Sorry, I gotta vent sometimes...I don't want to sound ungrateful to my sis & her husband, so I'm doing it here..venting I mean, not sounding ungrateful! Boy, talk about putting one's foot in one's mouth, huh? I'm very grateful that they're willing to put up with me for three weeks, letting me heal & rest. Heh, I'm getting some great tanlines, I must admit. ;)
current mood:  restless
current music: "The Today Show" in the background
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| Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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7:27 pm
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Your Score: Flirty Air LoverYou scored 22.Your sexuality comes through in the way you communixate -- through your gestures and your inventive ideas -- just like an air sign. To you, sex is simply another way to connect and share energy with your fellow human beings. While you're exceptionally expressive, you may downplay your emotions in romantic relationship, keeping an aloof distance as a defense against getting hurt. That's not to say that you're no fun between the sheets. Quite to the contrart, you're a playful, flirtatiouslover, stimulated by the interplay of two personalities and by some degree of light-hearted debate. A little dirty talk and some intellectual fireworks will keep you aroused!
Turn-on Tips: Entice and tempt like a mischievous Gemini and turn on the magnetic charm of Libra. Like gregarious Aquarius, spice things up with experimental new techniques.
Pls do rate my test, and leave me messages if you have any constructive criticism.
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| Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
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9:33 am - Oh yeah...
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...I'm doing pretty well, lounging here at my sister & hubby's place in Florida. It's usually warm (low to mid 80s), but has been cloudy lately. Today is supposed to be sunny, so I'm gonna get my butt outside very soon and do my very best lizard imitation.
The feeling is slooowwwwlllyyyy coming back into my thumb. Sometimes it feels totally fine, others, well, not so fine. I've been very very good about wearing my cervical collar when I'm in the house (includes sleeping), and my cervical brace when I'm out of the house. I come home on April 21, then back to work May 5. *sigh* I can't wait to get back to work...four months is 'way too long to be out...I'm incredibly restless. I feel more & more like my brain is dribbling out my ears the longer I stay out. *bigger sigh* I feel a bit homesick, too...weird, eh? I miss my own bed, my stuff, my cat, normal trees, terrain that isn't flat with weird flora...ah well, I'm really not complaining...LOL, more along the lines of whining, I think! *rueful grin*
So anywho. I hope to see many of you at onecrazymother and 1cmf's MayDay party. I surely hope it'll be warm outside!! ;)
current mood:  weird
current music: "This is the New Shit" by Marilyn Manson
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9:16 am - Some Quotes that Struck a Chord
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I've not heard from my partner/Dom Master Joe in over two weeks. Frankly, I'm worried that something has happened to him. All of his email accounts are down, he's not returning my voicemails. This isn't like him at all.
I came across a couple of quotes that I'd like to put out there...maybe he's reading my LiveJournal, maybe not.
"I make mistakes. I am out of control, and at times hard to handle; but if you can't handle me at my worst you don't deserve me at my best." - Marylin Monroe
"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up on something when you know it's everything you want." - The Eagles
current mood: worried
current music: "Love Infernal" by Poisonblack
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2008
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6:09 pm - Yeah, Baby!! ;)
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Your Score: Luxury Sedan You scored 60 Classiness, 85 Coolness, 56 Ingenuity, and 77 Ego!
You are the luxury sedan. You have pretty much everything the mature and common sense person strives to have in themselves and in a partner. You are cool, suave, amazingly classy, hardworking, original, and overall awesome. You have worked your way through life and rank and are allowed to have the ego that you do-- since you always strive for perfection. You, my friend, are the elite.
current mood: chipper
current music: "Dalai Lama" by Rammstein
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| Friday, March 28th, 2008
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7:15 pm - Visions
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I was going through one of my old journals, and found my notes from Eagle Clan, Twilight Covening, October 2006. One of our exercises was to be open to a vision of what will be. There were four things that I "saw":
1. Lose my father
2. Part ways with Kirk
3. Still be with my current company, and be well respected & even promoted
4. Become more involved with bodywork
All four of them have happened. It's kinda freaking me out a little bit...
current mood: weird
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2008
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4:58 pm - Memories
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I hate tax time. Today, I hate it even more than usual, because it's forcing me to relive all of the doctor apts, tests and agonizing decisions we made with my dad. But I have to do it, to file taxes for the 6.5 months he was alive in 2007.
I hate this, I can't even begin to describe it.
I watched yolen's posting of the Marilyn Manson American Sign Language interpretation of "This is the New Shit" about 5 times. I felt better after that, the video really is brilliant.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: "This is the New Shit" by Marilyn Manson
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| Monday, March 24th, 2008
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8:31 pm - Three-Week Post-Op Report
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The neurosurgeon is very pleased with my progress - hooray! He said the plate is exactly as he placed it, no movement or shifting has occurred. I've had minimal soreness at the incision and my neck, although mighty sore muscles that attach to the neck. I had no hoarseness and again, minimal difficulty swallowing. All very good news. I go back to my day job on May 5. I can't go back to work at the hospital until July. The doc says it'll take 4 months for the bones to fuse sufficiently to withstand my doing bodywork. *sigh* OK, it's only really another 3 months. And I'll be pretty busy. He gave his official OK for me to spend the rest of my time recuperating in sunny Florida, to visit my sister & her hubby!! I fly down on Monday, 3/31. I'll be down there about 3 weeks. OMG, to be warm and be able to sun myself like a lizard on a hot rock...*prrrrr*...it'll be like heaven. I must avoid flexion and extension of my neck as much as possible (that means bending my head forward as well as tilting it backwards). It puts too much stress on the plate that's screwed into four of my vertebrae, which in turn inhibits the bones from fusing. Of course, no lifting or carrying heavy objects, nothing at all on my shoulders (ie, pocketbook must be held under my arm, not slung on my shoulder), no reaching or stretching for things. Heh, I even asked about oral sex...the doc is great. He wasn't in the least bit embarrassed, took my question very seriously. At first he said it would be OK, but then as he thought about the motion of my neck and potential force of my partner, we concluded that, no, it's not OK right now. But "conventional" sex is OK, as long as there's no pressure on my neck in any way. I *could* go out dancing, if I really felt the need, but only with the heavy black postural collar I've mentioned before. And "no jumping about." I really thought about going to the club on Saturday...I might still go, but just to see people I know, and do some of the slower dances. Nothing too active. We'll see how I feel as the weekend draws closer.
I can also start to do light-duty chores around the house, like fill in nail holes with wood putty, or clean out my flower beds. No raking or pulling weeds, just cleaning out the leaves, picking up smaller branches. I *must* wear the big honking heavy duty collar if I'm doing anything other than sleeping, reading, or watching TV. Even computer I should wear it, to help keep my head from flexing too much while typing.
Driving is the most difficult and uncomfortable thing I'm allowed to do. Changing lanes is frightening, because I can't really turn enough to make sure no one is beside me, and we all have blind spots with our mirrors. I'm only permitted to drive 1/2 hr to 45 min at most at any one time. That's plenty to get me to where I want to be. Well, except to my Master's place...that's 2-3 hours away, so that's not an option for me right now. *sigh* I surely hope that he can get away & visit us in FL like he hopes he can. That would be so lovely. And onecrazymother is hoping to visit, as well...Another lovely thing to look forward to.
I'm exhausted, it's been a very long day. Oh, and the oil tank guy *still* can't confirm or deny that there is or isn't an oil tank buried somewhere on the Kenvil house property. We spent two hours there today...he hand dug a hole 33" deep where the oil line should have been, and there was nothing. He put the sensors down in the hole...nothing. The house is officially out of attorney review, let's see what the house inspection and final lawyer's statement says about it.
Tomorrow I go for my 2nd allergy patch test, 3rd one on Wed. I wonder what else I'm allergic to, in addition to my little furball here and dustmites?
current mood: exhausted
current music: Purring, contented lap kitty
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| Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
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1:35 pm - Happy Easter and Blessed (belated) Ostara!!
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What Your Easter Egg Says About You
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You are whimsical, spontaneous, and fun loving.
You connect well with people, but nature is your true love.
Changing locations and scenery is important to your creativity.
You are inspired by the surroundings around you
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1:32 pm - Oh, Really...Neptune, eh?
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You Are From Neptune
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You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability.
You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea.
Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion.
You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone.
If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.
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